An Update

I've been busy, very busy, so I haven't posted in a few days.

And it's not what you think, well mainly.

I've been working, working, working, at my day job. It was my mum's birthday and I helped organize a party for her. I saw a few clients, nothing grand or really worth writing about, accept one guy asked me if I could get pregnant by giving head, ha, no, but I can get STD/STI's so I shall be using one.

He's got balls.

For a few weeks, I've been talking to another male escort, Matt he shall be called.

We exchange stories about our clients, and sometimes ask each other for advice. Of course there's flirtation, but eh started it I swear.

He says he's pretty good at giving head (I tend to believe him) and he would like my professional opinion on his technique(s). He wont charge me, of course.

I think we could have a lot of fun together, he's very dominant, as am I. I love to be challenged, as I've said before, I can't stand it when a man gives up and let's me do whatever I want, assuming that my constant challenges means that I want to be the boss. I don't.

If I come out on top, I want to have really worked for it. I play hard, and I play dirty as well.

I continuously challenge, and I can keep it up forever, I need a partner that can challenge me back just as much as I can dish it out.

As soon as they give in, I'm bored and then I'm out.

If I can treat a man like a slave and he just takes it and is still infatuated by me, it's going no where and I'm still out. There aint a chance in hell that I'm in.

Although, even if they let me, I don't treat men like slaves, I just can't do it, I feel terrible, I'm a giver, I love to do things for people and I'm extremely independent, I don't like to ask for help.

Weird combo right?

Anyway, back to Matt, do I really want anything more than a professional relationship? (By this I mean we do threesome's together if a client wants a male and female involved.)

I can't decide what I want at the moment.

Striptease

My favourite song to perform a striptease for a client (or anyone really) is Cream by Prince.

I love it, the perfect beat (not to slow or fast) and the sexy lyrics are...perfect!

I love Prince, he has the sexy pirate look and eyeliner, I LOVE a man in eyeliner, they are my weakness.

For a bit of variety, I also like:

Peaches and Cream by 112

&

Xxplosive by Dr. Dre

Some advice for men who see escorts.

If you are a client of an escort, do not start to plan out your future involving them in anything more than a paid encounter. Do not start talking about settling down, about having a family, about them playing any sort of integral role in your life.

You've found an escort you really like, great, if you want to continue seeing her, keep it professional, you can be friends sure, but you still pay her to have sex with you, do not expects anything more.

It's very rare that the two of you will fall in love and live happily ever after. One in a million.

She is paid to like you, you are probably only seeing a very limited side of her personality, you don't know the whole her, and she will be keeping the not so lovable traits of her personality to herself, my point is you don't know the whole of her, probably you don't even know half of her.

Just keep texting me.

Remember the stalker guy?

Well, I just checked my blocked messages folder and he had texted me several times over the past few weeks, and you know what he said in all of them?

"Hi"

That's it. 'Hi'. Clearly he blew his chance with me, does he not get the picture?

I said I would not reply anymore last time, and I haven't even when he's baited me with questions and accusations, I've sometimes wanted to reply, but I have self control, I have not contacted him since I said I wouldn't.

He seems to think if he leaves me alone for a few days that I will change my mind. No, buddy, I wont.

Fact or Racism?

I always remember my year 10 Australian Studies teacher (he was awesome, smart and funny!) making a comment, I don't remember what it was, but one of the students said it was racist, now I know it wasn't a degrading comment, but as students do, they like to stir up the teachers.

The teacher replied by saying something along the lines of "Racism is a generalization of a particular race that is not true, what I said was a fact, as in a large percentage of this race has what I was talking about, it is not unfair to say that." Well he said it much more prettily, but thats the jist of it.

In saying that, I have found that about 70% of the asian clients I've had have become infatuated with me, they think there's more to our relationship than there actually is. Where as the Australian clients know it's a professional relationship and don't kid themselves that we can ever be anything more than strictly friends, and I doubt we will ever be close friends, it will always stay at a professional friendship.

Joking about kidnapping, really?

So, Scribbles sent me yet another email, he jokes about kidnapping me so he can have me all to his self and asks me for hints about how to do it.

Ha, I could totally kick your ass if you even tried. Yes, maybe I am a little arrogant, but he's a pussy, I could.

He tells me he's falling in love with me, that I'm his number one priority, that his dream is  that we can be together forever for real.

I'm flattered, but this still kinda gets under my skin. He doesn't even know me, well only the parts that I've let him see which is hardly any of my true self. I like a man that can challenge me (and loves to) as much as I challenge, that I can seduce, but not wrap around my finger.

Your just a little over-bearing.

I told one of my regulars, I'll call him Scribbles from now on (read this post to find out why), that I can't see him this weekend because I'm to busy, in reality I just didn't want to and I wanted a knew john for this Saturday night, change things up a bit, you know?

Well, he told me he feels empty because it's sunk in that he wont be able to see me until next weekend. Yes, he actually used the word 'empty'.

He just emailed me and said he's going out with his friends to get drunk because he thinks he can't sleep because he can't see me tomorrow night.

He heard some news the other day about some natural disaster warning in my city and got worried about me.

I always reply to his email with a few hours, and he says to me 'Where have you been hiding, young lady?'. I have know fucken idea what he's on about most of the time.

We're laying in bed together and he's really close to my face, and he randomly says 'Hi' to me, he tell's me how much he likes me and that he's falling in love with me, he tell's me about how my eyes are so gorgeous and about how I should be a model, to which I reply (every time) that I have know interest in doing that. He gives me financial advice about other businessy things I'm doing and warns me about all the risks, which of course I know all about, he's so cautious about everything, some times you just have to do it.

He worries about me regularly.

I have started to put some more professional restrictions on our time together, and I know this just causes him to chase more, but I will keep him in check.

Anyway, he always loves being told what to do.

The joys of Urban Dictionary.

Haha, check this out.

Labeling Sex

I read this post a little while ago, I love the content of this blog, most of the posts I find interesting and/or amusing.

And this post is very relevant, and I think quite accurate, how could someone else define your sexual status? Not just concerning your virginity, but about the whole lot.

How can we label other peoples sex lives?

A few years ago, I knew a guy, he identified himself as gay and so did everyone else, but he always flirted with me and he definitely checked my out, there was even some sexual tension between us.

I mentioned this to a friend one day, who said "Maybe he's actually bi, but more on the gay side of the scale?"

"There's a scale? How is it measured?"

Which sparked a debate.


I would consider myself to be straight, but that doesn't mean I don't want to be with a woman some times. I wouldn't have a relationship with a woman, but I would certainly sleep with one, does that make me bi? Or maybe I'm just a little bit bi, but who really knows?


Sex is to many things to really define, and you can't generalize it for everyone, it's just to broad a topic, it changes so much everyday, and from country to country and state to state and family to family.

Sex as a possibility is infinite.